I feel I get judged a lot.

I'm stuck. It is hard to get disability money, I'm not disabled enough, and I also had jobs in the past which doesn't help when trying to get disability money. So no disability money, yet it is also very hard to find a job. I don't have a BA yet, so that takes out a bunch of jobs. Then because my left vocal cord is paralyzed, it takes out a whole bunch of other jobs (like a server/host in a restaurant, or a cashier at busy and loud burger joint). I have done food delivery jobs in the past. I have a clean driving record. Yet I applied to some pizza and other food delivery places a few times. My resume shows I have the experience, my driving record shows I'm a great driver with no accident or tickets. I'm available at the time they need a driver for. But I didn't get the job, meanwhile I keep seeing the place advertising that they need drivers.

I once emailed my resume to a place, they then called to ask me to stop by for an interview, and when I came there, they said they aren't hiring right now. That was just one place that was obvious where I was prejudged and discriminated. I was so confused and in shock that I didn't make a scene which was probably a good thing, but still I wish I did more to put that manager in his place, and make them feel bad. Maybe some
customers would hear it and won't come back. Altought that one place was the only one where it was clear I was prejudged, I believe it happened a few times more. Especially with those driving positions.

I do believe I get judged a lot. I bet that many times when I handed my resume to a manager and they said the usual "some one will call you if you fit the requirements..." they didn't really take a good look at my resume, but judged me and that was for my chances at that job. I also feel judged by my friends sometimes. I feel people see me as slow, or retarted. I feel sometimes females friends treat me with extra care. As though they are taking some motherly part, and feel they need to be extra nice to me. When I get the "heeey buuuddy" in a nice ton like you say to a 7 year old, I see it as some judgement, it gets me annoyed, but I don't show it. Of course I could be wrong. Maybe I'm reading too much into it. But I'm pretty sure a few times that it was the way I saw it. Another reason is because those same people were sure I was much younger than them. As though they saw me as their little pitiable brother.